Do you ever look around, and think everyone around you has it so great? That the people around you all have great marriages, tidy bank accounts, semi-clean houses, and kids who obey the first time and clean their rooms?
I’ll tell you what. I want to be honest here in this blog. There are several topics I won’t discuss here, just because they are too personal, and well, my family’s private business. That’s not to say I don’t WISH I could talk about some of them here… Selfishly, even just to get an occasional “I know how you feel” or “I’m so sorry.”
But, what I CAN tell you, is that I DON’T have it all together. I don’t have a perfect life. Those categories in the first paragraph? Yeah, I don’t have them mastered. Not a one of them.
But, I’m trying. Sometimes my fingers ache from the hanging on for dear life. Sometimes I just get exhausted from all of the trying. Sometimes I feel very empty from all of the giving and giving during the day, all the while secretly hoping I’ve made some progress in at least one area.
The trying can be exhausting, can’t it? And many times it feels like walking on a treadmill—walking and walking and never getting anywhere.
After all of the trying and hanging on for dear life, what’s left to do?
Pray.
That’s what I’m doing today. That’s how I’m trying today.
Sometimes I don’t even feel worthy to pray. Why should the God of the Universe care to hear my prayers…when I’ve been ignoring Him lately, or when I’ve gotten myself into this mess I’m in?
Today, when I asked God, “Why? Why would You want to hear my prayer and help?”
It was as if a cool breeze blew into my room. I felt like I heard, “Because I love you.”
And I was reminded of my own children. When they come to me for help, with sincere hearts, what do I do?
I want to HELP THEM. Why? Because I love them. I adore them. I can’t snuggle them and kiss their rosy cheeks enough I love them so much.
And, so maybe, just maybe, the God of the Universe loves me too. Like that.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." – Jeremiah 29:11
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