Just the other day, I heard a man singing as he was walking along, and I thought to myself, "I wonder what it must be like to feel so happy and carefree?" Because in that moment, I wasn't feeling very carefree about life...or parenting...or marriage.
In that moment, I was feeling pretty overwhelmed, and frustrated.
That man singing happily made me wonder...Does anyone else look upon happy people wistfully, wishing you were as happy as them?
What about that mom on Facebook that seems to have it all together? Do you hate her...or do you secretly wish you could be more like her in some ways?
Or do you ever see a really great married couple, and wish your marriage could be more like that?
Oh, I understand the whole "Grass is always greener" principle. But, I really do wonder sometimes if other people have it easier? Or maybe that, deep down, they are more content...and, you know...happier.
The happy singing man also made me wonder if any of you ever visit here, and think, "Why is that girl so dang happy all the time?" I know that many days when I write, my tone sounds upbeat...and sometimes (annoyingly so?) chipper. To be completely honest, some days I do feel chipper or slap happy when I write. Other days (like yesterday), I post lots of pictures, and stay away from a "feeling" kind of post. Because, sometimes, I'm tired, and depressed, and frustrated, and have no desire to share my sad heart with the world.
Please tell me I'm not alone. Please tell me that some of you have days like me...days when you'd rather not expose a sad or frustrated heart.
Or, like me, do you ever see someone singing (or happy) and wonder what that must feel like?
Or...are YOU the SINGING PERSON? (And if you are, I'd like to say--You have immaculate hair. I am very impressed at how it always looks so perfect. Maybe that is why you are so happy. Perhaps that is the secret to happiness...perfect, non-moving hair, in a slightly 70's style.)
So, talk to me, Goose. How do you feel?
Or...what is your truth to tell today?
Thankfully, my hope, my happiness, is not of this world...
